The reality of the situation...

... is just starting to dawn on me. All being well, I'm going to be pregnant and raising a two year old AT THE SAME TIME. I've been concentrating so much on just keeping the pregnancy going that I haven't given much thought to what it will take to just survive a pregnancy with Tobes. When I was pregnant with Toby I was sick as a dog for about two months. I could barely get out of bed, couldn't even shower myself or wash my hair because I would get such bad nausea and vertigo that I would just fall over. It was very hard but I wasn't working and J was working right across the street so he could pop home and bring me lunch, stay late into the morning and be home by 5.30pm.

Going to be very different this time around. No laying on the couch watching QVC all afternoon. No sleeping in late, then having a nap and going to bed early. No getting J to make instant mashed potatoes at 4am since he'll be getting up at 5.30 for work now. It's a whole new ballgame.

How will I handle morning sickness and still be able to change poopy nappies? How will I get through the day without a lie-in or a nap? I'm feeling exhausted already and I've barely even begun this process. How will I wrestle Toby into his shoes or get him in and out of the bath when my belly is the size of a watermelon? I feel really daunted by the prospect of the hard work ahead.

And then, at the end of the pregnancy, I'll have a newborn baby AND a three year old. My God, I need to lie down.